Million Reasons

Since I’ve started my own business, it’s been a learning experience and a bit of a learning curve.  I’ve researched different ways to market myself by reading and listening to others experience – both successes and failures and determining how I can learn from each of them.  One tip, which seems to be a constant, is creating a gratitude journal.  As I listen and get more details, journaling doesn’t make you successful, it’s a tool you can use on your way to success.   Taking note of where you came and where you’re going helps you to see the obstacles that you face as opportunities.

Therefore, on my road to success; I’ve started my own journal. Negative thinking and spiraling into the pit of despair wondering if I will ever ‘make it’ at my own business sometimes challenge me.  My journaling is in its infancy but at the end of the day, I’m looking at all the good things in my life, and trying to end the day on a positive note so to speak.

It’s no secret that I’ve been struggling at work, my full time IT gig, and realizing more and more that this type of work doesn’t bring me joy.   Unfortunately, I have to stick with it for the time being and therefore I look hard each day to find the positives.  And while those close to me may only hear me complain about my job, I really am trying to look at the positives.

Years ago, I had won a car with a raffle ticket at a fundraiser for breast cancer.  The car was pink, white, and covered in signatures of survivors.  As I drove it around, I collected more signatures and one day, as I came out to my car, someone had left this note.

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I kept the note as a reminder and put it on my refrigerator.  From time to time, I stare at the note and wonder who put it on my car, did they know me, and what exactly did they see in me.  This morning I stared at the note. Questioning myself on how can I show up little ‘brighter’ today.  The note is a good reminder that I need to keep looking for the light every day – even on the dark, dreary mornings, like today.

On Sunday, as most folks were watching the Super Bowl, the Hubby and I were sitting in the hot tub while the snowflakes fell around us.  It was very peaceful.  We weren’t into the game this year for lots of reasons but I still wanted to catch the half time show.  Luckily, we got out just in time to catch Lady Gaga stand on the stadium above.  I wouldn’t say I’m a huge fan of hers but her music is on my several of my playlists and overall,  I thinkg she’s pretty talented.  I thought her performance was amazing and she executed it very well.  The one song that caught me off was ‘Million Reasons,’ I don’t think I’ve heard that one before but it didn’t stop me from downloading immediately.   I’ve been listening to it every morning as I drive into work this week thinking of a million reasons why I don’t like my job or career that I’ve work so hard to create the last several years.  Like I said above, I can easily get in the spiral of despair.

As I was driving into work early this morning, listening to Lady Gaga,  I saw two guys going through a dumpster with a flashlight.   I don’t know what they were looking for and I don’t know their story but it was disturbing nonetheless.  Actually seeing them made me thankful in a twisted way too.  In an effort to think positive and be thankful, I felt very thankful I have a really good job. It may not be one that enjoy now but it has brought me joy in the past and I’m thankful for all the experiences it has taught me, the skills I can use for my business, and all the people I’ve met along the way.

So tonight, as I’m wrapping up my day, I’m writing in my journal that I really do have a million things to be grateful for.  What are you grateful for?

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