To Run or Not?

I struggled with a couple of decisions today.  I’m fresh from vacation and feeling relaxed, rejuvenated, and basically like a human being again.  Before vacation, I was stressed and I felt more like a monster.  I didn’t feel like myself.

While on vacation, I started running again.  I ended up logging 39 miles – 3 miles per day (except one day when we went on a boat tour of the Na Pali coast).  I felt those 39 miles, not in a bad way but a good way and I saw progress over those miles.  I started slow and ended up shaving 45 seconds off my time.  Forty-five seconds may not sound like a lot but it’s still progress, it’s going in the direction I’d like my time to go.  Not only did I see progress in terms of time, I saw progress in my body, how I felt, and my mood.  I wouldn’t say I’m overweight but I’m not at the weight I want to be at.  I was excited to get home and get on the scale but as it turns out, I didn’t lose any pounds.  I was a bit discouraged but I looked in the mirror and I saw the difference.  I may not have lost any weight but I got leaner and stronger and that is more important.

So today, I struggled.  Do I run?  Can I keep up with running every day? How can I keep my paradise running momentum going?

I set my alarm for 6AM. I thought I could go run for 30 minutes and feel great the rest of the day. Sounds like a great plan but it didn’t happen.  I woke up at 5:30AM and heard the rain.  I knew it was dark and cold(er) outside and I wasn’t motivated. I turned off my alarm and slept for another hour and a half.  And I didn’t feel bad about it.  All day at work, I was thinking that I wanted to run though.  When I got home, I put on my running clothes and lights, and  decided to run.  I ran 5 miles around Green Lake.  It wasn’t fast but the point is I did it. I ran. I didn’t let the darkness, the dampness, the coolness stand in the way of me feeling better.  I know that running every day isn’t realistic for me but I can make a plan to run several times during the week.  I also know that if I make the decision to get outside, the darkness and dampness will actually start to feel good.

To run or not run?  I choose to run!

What are you choosing to do these days?



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