I struggled with a couple of decisions today. I’m fresh from vacation and feeling relaxed, rejuvenated, and basically like a human being again. Before vacation, I was stressed and I felt more like a monster. I didn’t feel like myself.
While on vacation, I started running again. I ended up logging 39 miles – 3 miles per day (except one day when we went on a boat tour of the Na Pali coast). I felt those 39 miles, not in a bad way but a good way and I saw progress over those miles. I started slow and ended up shaving 45 seconds off my time. Forty-five seconds may not sound like a lot but it’s still progress, it’s going in the direction I’d like my time to go. Not only did I see progress in terms of time, I saw progress in my body, how I felt, and my mood. I wouldn’t say I’m overweight but I’m not at the weight I want to be at. I was excited to get home and get on the scale but as it turns out, I didn’t lose any pounds. I was a bit discouraged but I looked in the mirror and I saw the difference. I may not have lost any weight but I got leaner and stronger and that is more important.
So today, I struggled. Do I run? Can I keep up with running every day? How can I keep my paradise running momentum going?
I set my alarm for 6AM. I thought I could go run for 30 minutes and feel great the rest of the day. Sounds like a great plan but it didn’t happen. I woke up at 5:30AM and heard the rain. I knew it was dark and cold(er) outside and I wasn’t motivated. I turned off my alarm and slept for another hour and a half. And I didn’t feel bad about it. All day at work, I was thinking that I wanted to run though. When I got home, I put on my running clothes and lights, and decided to run. I ran 5 miles around Green Lake. It wasn’t fast but the point is I did it. I ran. I didn’t let the darkness, the dampness, the coolness stand in the way of me feeling better. I know that running every day isn’t realistic for me but I can make a plan to run several times during the week. I also know that if I make the decision to get outside, the darkness and dampness will actually start to feel good.
To run or not run? I choose to run!
What are you choosing to do these days?