A few things come to mind as I reach this milestone in life…
1) I never thought I would ever be 40…not saying I thought I would die before I got here, it just always seemed so far off. It’s like I’m not my parents age…and it just seems wrong.
2) I remember when my mom turned 40. My dad arranged for several of her closest friends and relatives near and far to come to our house for a surprise party. I remember it like it was yesterday (isn’t that what folks over 40 are supposed to say about the past??) He had planned this party for some time but only let me in on the gig about a week before because I could not (and still can’t) keep a secret to save my life. Her birthday is June 8, so we were already out on summer break. The Tuesday before, we sat at the dinner table and I could hardly contain myself so I just brought up how I was excited for the weekend. My mom, of course, questioned why I was ‘so excited’ especially considering I didn’t have to get up and go to school the next morning. I just explained that I just excited…just because, no reason. I’m sure my dad and brother shot me a look thinking I was going to spill the beans but I didn’t. My dad had made sure that she had to work that day (she was a nurse at a pediatrician office) and as people started to arrive I became more and more excited for my mom. I used up some of my energy circling our block on my bike. I figured I had to do something to pass the time. The house was filled with people that loved her and they were all there to celebrate that special day with her. My dad picked her up from work and as we all peaked out the window watched her come up the steps we prepared ourselves to surprise her. And she was. The cake he bought for her was a chocolate mint cake with cream frosting and little chocolate mint leaves decorating the edges. He picked it up from the French bakery in town and even though I tried to tell him she wouldn’t like it, he kept to his plan. I realized at that moment it definitely wasn’t a party that I was going to really appreciate – at the time, I care for chocolate mint. It was definitely more of a ‘grown up’ party so my BFF and I went out in the back yard and played. We were in the process of putting in a pool so we ran up around in the dirt. I don’t remember how the party ended but I remember that my mom was happy.
The thing is my mom was 40. I was old enough to remember when she turned 40. She was married, had two kids and a good job. One of my biggest flaws is comparing myself to others. I’m married, have 4 ‘furbabies’, and a good job. It’s just weird to think I’m this old.
3) There is a movie out called “This is 40.” It stars Paul Rudd and Leslie Mann and is about both of them turning 40 and things they deal with from day to day. I can’t really relate to this movie per se but it’s hilarious!! It has some really funny quotes like “I don’t want to shop at old lady stores. I don’t want to go to J. Jill and Chico’s and Ann Taylor.”
4) And another Hollywood reference…”Friends.” When Joey turned 30, he held his hands up and yelled “Why God, why?? We had a deal! Let the others grow old, not me. ” I know he’s not 40 but still…I’m having a hard time letting go of that decade.
5) Last night after dinner, we went out for drinks. We found a local bar that was playing music. It was an interesting crowd of folks more our parents age rather than our age. It was good people watching. As we sat there, I started to panic. I couldn’t cross over to middle age with these people. They were all dancing and having a good time but it was just weird. It was like my mom dancing at a bar to Taylor Swift…just seems wrong.
6) This morning it happened, I woke up and I was 40. There was little I could do stop it so I might as well get on the bandwagon and just accept it. After a cup of coffee and watching the sunrise, the hubby arranged a 7 mile run for my BFF and I. We were to run to the Kona Brewing Co and back. At the ‘finish line’ he was there waiting for us with water, towels, and a medal. It was awesome! Tomorrow the celebration continues as we’re going swimming with dolphins in the ocean. I can’t wait! I’ve wanted to swim with dolphins since I was little sitting on the couch watching Flipper.
So…folks…this is me…this is my 40. I’m married, have a great job, I’m healthy, and I’m surrounded by people who love me. Thanks for humoring me through this process.