I know I haven’t written in my blog for while – I haven’t really had much to say. I’ve also been re-evaluating what I’m doing with my life. Part of it is I feel like I’m stuck again. I get up, go to work, run home…over and over. The weather is a huge factor. I just have so much trouble getting motivated when it’s cold and raining. And I hate to even complain about that because I think the PNW has had it pretty good this year.
I have this app on my phone (Milepost) that gives inspirational quotes of the day – mostly towards running but overall you can apply them to anything active. Today’s quote was perfect for me.
“Methinks that the moment my legs began to move, my thoughts began to flow.” ~Henry David Thoreau
This quote is so true – the moment I start running or biking, my thoughts flow. I get most of my inspiration out on the road – whether it be running or biking. It’s my ‘me’ time.
I feel like I’m stuck once again in my life. The last time I was stuck, I got cancer, so I’m hoping my solution right now has nothing to do with cancer. I’ve taken the last few months to try to figure it out but I don’t feel like I’m any further than I was before. So it’s Sunday afternoon and the sun is finally shining. I feel like I’ve been hibernating all winter and all my body needs is warmth from the sun. The weatherman predicted (or at least my weather app predicted) that it would be nice all weekend long but it wasn’t quite right until today. Time for a long, much needed bike ride.
I have several routes around my country home – 10, 25,32, 40, and 60 mile routes to choose from. I think the 40 mile route is always a favorite of mine . It has rolling hills and miles of beautiful views and an added bonus of limited traffic. It’s long enough that I feel like I’ve accomplished something but yet short enough that it doesn’t take me all day.
I started out on my 40 mile loop ride – the wind seems to be in my favor and this puts me in a good mood. Don’t get me wrong – I love a good workout but why make a 40 mile ride even harder by adding a headwind to it. Sometimes a workout just needs to be about endurance – time in the saddle or time pounding the pavement. The wind complicates things.
As I was leaving my house, I started imaging my route – I’ve done it more times than I can count. I would go through the town (albeit small town), pass the dog that chases me, onto the major road, turn at the light and then continue through the rolling hills in the country and back to town. As I was riding I just almost couldn’t make myself do it – I was already bored. I do this route a lot even though I hadn’t done it since last September, I couldn’t believe I wanted to quit already. I don’t necessarily want a new route but I didn’t think I could do it again. So after I go through town and sit at the one traffic light, I’m almost to the dog, and I decide to do the unthinkable – at least for me. I go the opposite direction. I know, huge right?? I thought it would help me see a different perspective. I forced myself to look around and see the same view from a different perspective. I typically have the mountain at my back but this time it was right in front of me and it was beautiful. In the end, it was a good day for a bike ride. The birds were chirping and the leaves on the trees sprouting. The ride made me think about changing perspective though…is it really that easy to change direction?
You see, I’m a Project Manager by day and my mind thinks best by accomplishing the milestones and delivering on time and within budget. I’m a great checklist person.
- Get BA, MA = check
- Get Married = check
- Get Job= check
- Have Kids = um, no thank you
- Be Successful = check
- Survive Cancer = check
- Run Marathons = check
- Volunteer = check
I’m at a point asking myself, what else? What else do I want to do in life? Will I ever be satisfied? Can I be satisfied? I need a new plan. My objective in life is to make a difference so how do I want to make a difference in this world now? What will I do/plan for in the next 5 years? I just turned 39 and I’m wondering what else is there? Maybe I feel stuck because I’m coming to a close of my 30’s. I hear 40’s are the best but to be honest, I’m gonna need the year to get used to it. Ideally, in a perfect world, I’d like to stay 33.
What do you do to help yourself stay satisfied and motivated? Do you have a 5 year plan?